A Lefty Writes

It's no secret that I can be something of a bottler, emotionally speaking. It's easier for me to keep it to myself than tell someone when they're pissing me off. I don't like confrontation and I'm not great at moderation. I'm either passive or really pissed.

I need to work on that.

My job, of late, has challenged my bottling abilities, because there's so much to be pissed at. My boss is AWOL half the time and I'm left to pick up the pieces. Some of our employees at the phone banks are good on the phones but terrible when it comes to actually showing up on time. I don't want to be obsessive about every detail, because I don't think that helps anyone, but I need to get better at telling people (especially when I'm their boss) when they need to do something better.

And I really need to give my boss a piece of my mind. My work load is twice what it should be because I'm carrying both of us and covering his ass half the time. And what's worse is that the work we're doing isn't of the caliber that it should be because everything happens at the last minute.

If this weren't a short-term employment situation, I'd seriously consider finding a new job, but since I'm going to be doing that anyways after the elections, there's no reason to unemploy myself for extra months, especially when I'm committed to the campaigns that we're working for (not to mention enjoying a regular paycheck.

I don't mind being responsible, and I'm always going to pick up the slack when things need to get done, but I need to figure out a way to do it that doesn't turn me into a tightly-wound ball of rage.